Good Deeds

Have you ever preformed a task for someone? As a favor? Or just because you wanted to be nice?

You approach the task with the best intentions. You are a crusader for justice, riding the white horse of helpfulness, off to slay the evil whatever-thing-you-need-to-do.

But in the end, it all blows up in your face.


It could be a number of things. Maybe you were taken for granted or maybe you got in trouble for it. It make you think why you helped in the first place.

I really don't like that feeling, I do not like feeling regret. After I help someone I want to feel all gooey inside, I want to feel like a chocolate cake with melted chocolate inside. So that when I'm cut open all the delicious chocolate flows out and the person who is eating the cake squeals with delight.

Thankfully, situations like that do not arise often. Even if they do it's still okay, I can handle not being appreciated. Sometimes I'll help and if I feel good about my task, that's all it takes to make my day. I just really can't stand getting in trouble for helping (I'm talking about legitimate causes here, not like robbing a bank or something), especially if you're dragged in to it.

It almost feels like the person you helped forgets about what you did after the task is done. After that you're expendable.

But with that being said, everyone should perform a selfless good deed from time to time. I feel like it helps you enjoy life more. I recently went to McDonald's for a meal and as I got there I saw a guy sitting outside.

Normally, I'd walk past, but today, I stopped. In the memory of my friend J-gun, I asked the man if he'd like a meal. He did. We ate. He thanked me.

Afterward, the sun seemed brighter, the birds sounded better and colors were more vivid.

Awesome.

Note: I understand that this post is a little bi-polar. Please forgive me. 

Note: Carlos came in to my room and tried to sing me a song. Then he goes and tries to give me a hug.

"You're such a good friend" he says. He pops in every few minutes and repeats it.

Somebody is feeling really sappy today.

I don't know what is up. But, It's kinda freaking me out.